My name is Jennifer Smith. I have been married for 20 years now and have 4 kids to show for it! I have a blog that I started a while ago to help give a "timeline" of my life and struggles. I am asking myself why another one? Why not add to that one? I want this blog to be my spiritual growth. Like everyone else I have struggles in my life and I want to be able to share my life line. This life line is the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I want this blog to be my Testimony of Him who has stood beside me through my trials. Sometimes I didn't know He was there, sometimes I didn't know I needed Him there. But there He was helping me to see His Hand in my life. So I want to Honor Him, by sharing my Testimony through my thoughts and my experiences and my music.
So to start with I know the first question people ask is How did you come up with your blog name? This was a series of 3 events that helped me. The first was my Mother-in-Law paid for me (and my sister-in-laws) to attend a Convention called "Time Out for Women". I was not in the mood to listen to other women talk about how they survived their trials. No offense, but when you are in a trial you can't handle listening to anyone else talk about how they survived...at least I can't! My thought is, I went through a Life altering trial...you not getting a promotion, or an award, or loosing your grandma has nothing on watching your child go through 15 surgeries in 15 months, flat lining it 3 times, hitting your max out of pocket for insurance every year, having your husband be emotionally and verbally abused by leaders to the point that he quits his job so now I have to go get a job so that we can have insurance for said kid who has now had 18 surgeries, My getting forcefully rear ended totaling a car that I didn't want to replace let alone afford to replace, forcing us to sell our house and move closer to family so that I can have help, I have to change jobs, fight my own PTSD all while your what, having car troubles. And no I am not belittling your trials. But you can see, that my attitude was a "poor me and poo on you" kinda thing. But I am getting better. So I went to the Convention to "be with my family". Along the way one of the speakers spoke about the song "Lead, Kindly Light" and how the word "Light" is another word for Christ. So if you insert it the song would be "Lead, Kindly Christ" Notice the coma. I'm not leading, I am following Christ! It was a beautiful thought when you read the words to the song (will insert link later). So this was Event #1.
Event #2, After the Convention, my sister-in-laws and I decided that we needed time together, so we decided that once a month we would get together for lunch. As I was leaving this meal with my sister-in-law getting ready to start her own "Spiritual" blog, I had been thinking to myself. What could I call my Spiritual Blog. So I hook up Pandora to my radio, and what is the first song I listen to? Lead, Kindly Light! I knew that I wanted to incorporate this song into my blog. So the next morning, I go to set up my blog...and it's taken...I don't know what to do! So this leads me to...
Event #3. It's Sunday morning and I'm curling my daughters hair for Church. I tell her what I have learned and what I want to do. I give her my phone with the words to the song Lead, Kindly Light and ask her to read it and tell me what she thinks. She then points out that "Lead Thou Me" is through out the song and isn't that what I want is for the Savior to Lead Me. I just love my kids!!!! It was beautifully said and not taken...so Lead Thou Me was born into a blog!
I hope that you will feel my love for my Savior through experiencing my blog. I can not deny that there is a Christ the loves and knows me, I hope that I will one day be able to shed my "natural man" and "come unto Christ"
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